Life is like a rollercoaster now. Still, I haven’t had any affirmative replies for my deputy manager applications. Also, I apparantly failed my Operations Management exam, which was a complete surprise. The resit is the same day as the Corporate Finance exam. 22 August. If I intend finishing my Civilekonom in two years, I have to pass both exams that very day.
However, I have been applying for "regular" shop assistant jobs today. I have had quite postive responses and got a group interview at an anonymous (so far… I am going to tell you later) high street fashion retailer at Kensington High Street tomorrow.
I don’t know if London really is what I expected it to be. The East End where I live is so different from the areas where I have been living when I have been here for vacations. I hope to get a well-paid job shortly so that I can move to west London where it feels more secure and familiar. I love the fact that the East End is so diverse, with all the Bangla-style clothing, markets and Bollywood music. But I don’t like being so different from most other residents of the area. I really stand out, and I don’t think that it is a good way.
I miss Sweden, the sea, the beaches, Slottskogen and most of all my friends and family. I can’t say I am homesick, but I don’t know how much I am willing to sacrifice to live here.
It’s all so real now, maybe because it is reality. My new English agenda has a quote for each week, one of the quotes (by Tery Pratchett) says: "Only in our dreams we are free. The rest of the time we need wages."